day three

 
I choose you.
I choose you in my difficulties and 
my frustrations of today -
in the inadequacies I feel as
a mother, artist, wife,
follower of you...
times when all my flaws
flare up and choke
my heart and mind -
when my vision is distorted
by untruths, or just by
idolising a broken 
world (and its rites)
instead of fixing 
on your perfect love,
unchanging,
marvelling at atoms
and seasons passing,
abiding in your grace
and healing,
forgive my smallness,
my cowering in dark thoughts
and angry words -
refresh my spirit
with a fullness of joy,
take my doubt and worry,
and in my heavyness
shine your light
that I would see it
and know.